@ 21.7.07
Later..
he'll be leaving... & again, i'll be missing him...
a dae is like a month to me... & he...is gonna be back in a month tyme... tell me now how will i endure my feelings..? hmmm....tis is wat usualie happens to me... i'll treasure more weneva dat special sumone is leaving even if it was juz fer a while in my life... Haisss.... I'll mish eu.... Take care...
Im scared.... wrong timing fer him to leave... I need him now, tomorrow & alwes... How am i supposed to survive?? Im scared.... dat im gonna be sumone else "property".. U noe wat i mean...
I donno wats wrong wif me tau... gtg now... wateva it is..will mish him...
Mr........ @ 19.7.07
Hmm..
Mr X is having and facing lotsa problems now.. He is trying his veri bez, i hope, to settle everitin once and fer all.. He is confused wif his life aite now.. I juz feel dat he is struggling again to get out from tis shit... Worst i guess... I cant seem to loose him.. seriouslie.. But wat can i do?? I dont have the strength and power to help him.. The onlie thing i can do now is.. to be there weneva he needs sumone.. Howeva..He loves to keep everitin to himself and leave me wif no clue at tymes... Im abit depressed wif his behaviour..The ting is dat i noe..he dont wan to put anione in ani trouble... But cumon.. I donno la... && puhleez eh Mr X, if u r reading this...Dont u eva try to think of doing anitin foolish!!! Ur life is precious... Verie my dear... So, treasure it... U r veri veri veri veri veri veri important to ur family, frenz & me too....
Aniwae.. recentlie, gotta knew this Mr F.. He has the mixture of characters of 4 ppl dat i knew.. & ya...dat makes him to be different from the rest.. Fer now, he is still ok.. But the onlie thing is dat, he umm... Ahahaha! Nvm...Will not tell online.. So the malu la sei... Again, i donno la eh...Same thing happened weneva i knew a guy.... Not realie sure wether they r realie sincere wif wateva dat cums out from their mouth..Haisssss...... But its ok...
There's lots more to tok here..I wanna continue..but i guess tyme does not permits.. I have to go..Tutorial class is waiting...
Btw.. Y is his face keeps playing ard my mind and keeps appearing in my eyes? Again him..Even if.... Nutin!!! Hahaha! Cannot tell...Bluek!!! Neninenipupu...I gotta go now! Bubyez!!!
Pasrah akan kehendaknya.... @ 17.7.07
Haisssss.....
Everidae, i think of eu... But sumtymes i wonder, do u too? All the tyme i miss eu.. But I donno, do eu miss like i do??? I am juz helpless wen it cums to tis mis u mis u stuff... I can tahan...But I juz feel suffocated...Breathless...
Am i lyke in my own werld?? Dreaming of sumtin dat i cant achieved and own... Shud I hold on to the end??? My mind is sayin..full forget him..But my heart is saying, dont let go... I donno... Maybe he isn't fer me? Maybe he wants to be wif sumone hu can alwes be there fer him and meet up wif him weneva he is lonelie?? Well, sad to sae...Im not rite...
Sad am i?? Not sure bout dat..... Regret?? Neva did i think of it... Haissss.....
I'll juz go wif the flow la... If he's gonna be like the others...I guess, im gonna let him go...
My heart is fragile....Its not meant to be broken... && it'll take yrs to recover... Tell me now... Shud I, or shudnt I let him go???
I guess....I'll have to wait....
@ 16.7.07
How i realie wished u r juz here... I need to tell u sumtin very important baby.. It is indeed important.. I noe u arent free and available aite now.. I understand baby.. I realie do.. But how do i sae dat i mish eu ouh so much... It has been such a few daes since uve gone.. & im missing eu like ape sei.. Haha!Hmm... Wat the heck am i tokin here... Jiwangnyer..Haha! Nvm...
I have to tell u tis... As soon as possible!!! Hit me tau after reading...
Mmmmmuah!!!!! Onlie to eu! Kwangkwangkwang!
As daes goes by... @ 15.7.07
Im missing eu more den ever... I need u now baby... I mish ur voice..
U..there's alot of things happenend in juz a few daes u left tau u... Yea..
But its okey... I juz wan u now.. U r still in there...wif lots of bites from the noty noty
nyamok..... Hahaha! I'll wait fer eu....
Izinkan ku pergi @ 12.7.07
Hmmm... @ 11.7.07
Hmm....
Why do i feel dat...Im confused..Lost..
I noe i mish him..Its like so confirm..Keep on thinking bout him..
&& I donno y & wat the hell is wrong wif me... Menahan kerinduan..
Its juz so painful..Now, acting differentlie towards me? Dont tell me
dat he is also lyke the others...
Ouh god! Y do i have to go thru all tis shit now?? Projects..tests..exams..practicals..
Juz sick & tired of skewlin..I juz wanna go werk & have my pay..Arggh!!! 2 & half yr to go... & y do i feel dat it has been such a long tyme i had fun??!! NO!!!! I need my life back... Ouh great!!
Now..meeting loads of new people..people hu owns lotsa different characters......
Nice noeing dem..Chatting & chatting & chatting... " Kawan bia ramai...Kekasih bia satu"
Btw..Im soooooo hapie dat x lover of mine no longer dizturbs me wif his stupid
calls...& i hope he dont eva call me again..Lyke cum on...He wants to be wif me back again
wen he actualie busted me wif my own gdfren dat tyme! Goodness! Its like been almost a yr plus plus plus now...& he has dat stupid face in wanting me to be wif him back??? Puhleezz...
Its an absolutelie a NO NO!!!
Im living great wif my life aite now..even thou i feel dat i need sumone to be by my side..
Hmm.. Don worie..Im not dat desperate..Haha!
Actualie there's more to write down here..but.. Im in no mood to write so long..After been thru all tis stupid shit in my life..Ive cum to realise... I gotta long long wae to go ahead in life...& wen it cums to matters of the heart.. Be true to urself... Don play ard wif werds..Coz it hurts..!!! It does!!! So...... Mind ur werds...
